Adoption is almost here!!

Well, like everyone I'm sure, life has so many twists and turns! I have felt like the past six months has especially been like that for my family. The journey of foster care and adoption has proven to be amazing and hard all at the same time! I have had days of wanting to curl up into a ball and hide from life in general and then days of utter joy and amazement for what God has truly blessed me with! Ty's case has been, in the words of our agency " completely unique". I know that everyone who walks down the path of foster care will have a different story, but our seems to be uniquely LONG! We have had many scarey points throughout this journey where I thought I would have to say goodbye to my son! Thankfully, we have a God who controls everything and knows whats best! I was recently put to one of the hardest tests so far in this journey with Ty. After his biological mom signed away her rights she asked to talk to me about a few things. I was of course a little apprehensive but I agreed! Now, let me also say that throughout these three years I have tried to establish a relationship with her to ease her fears about us and where Ty is living. So, that being said, I agreed to sit down and talk! She talked with Ty first and told him she wanted him to live with "Miss Rochelle" as she calls me and "Mr. Jeremy" because he is happy and likes it here. She told him she tried fighting but in the end did what she thought was best. Those words were very mature, and I'm sure, very difficult for her to speak. Then she turned and looked at me with tears in her eyes. I had all I could do not to join in the tears! She begged to see him more often then what we agreed on and expressed her deep desire to be apart of his life and our family. My heart completely broke for her! I knew in my mind why we established a plan for contact and how often it would be, but I still ached for her! She is giving me a gift that I could never pay enough for! The gift of her SON! And she she gave up her rights so that he would be happy and well taken care of! She will now have no more children in her home to call her own, how sad! I am reminding though of another person who did the same thing for the entire world! I'm not trying to compare this mother to our Heavenly Father in the least! But the act that Ty's mom did for our family reminded me of what Christ did so long ago! I take for granted this truth so often! I forget because life is busy and zooms by so fast! I forget to stop and thank my God for what he did for MY family! I was adopted into God's family because He sent his son for me! What love and sacrifice!! I wonder how Christ felt?! I can't exactly know, but I do know that adopting a child out of a sinful world and watching him grow and accept Christ's love it's a perfect example of WHY He did it! My son is a blessing and gift from the Lord and I am forever grateful for his Biological mom and the difficult choice she made for Jeremy and I.